The Sixth day

hey y u haven up date ur blog wif ur Osaka photo, i wan to see eh, especially the Geisha, sure super super pretty i really wish to go by myself like u once in my life time, now onwards, i will learn Japanese, i will learn ahahaha, as u promised u much teach me oso plsssss. Other than that, i ll train myself to cycle, ahahahaah as u noe, i m super lousy in cycling, juz once u teach me only eee dont laugh at me o, i noe tat time i shouted like a big so po, but seriously, i m scare, super scare ehehhee but finally i can turn the pedal for 7 round until the bicycle stall ahahaha, u really a good coach, next time, u can try to interview to becum a coach if u cant find other jobs, it s suit u becuz, obviously u hv a good leadership especially to handle followers like me. AAHHAA but see i m improvin.... one day i might got oveer u.. i believe that, i m ambitious now (jokin) tired sleepy, but study soon. Hey miss ya

人生太多不愉快的事了， 可我们都要看的开， 因为我们选着了， 也许就在我们喝孟婆汤之前， 我决定了要忘了前世， 所有不开心的事， 重新再活一次， 而阎罗王， 给了我们机会， 所以我们又到这个世界, 同样的， 遇到不愉快的事， 可能最好的方法，就是尽量的把它忘了，重新再活一次， 那不如意的事也许也成了好事，我们不用学会去坚强, 勉强自己不开心的去笑, 我们需要, 学会忘, 学会放, 那才可以开心的... 要不想想, 还有许多许多不如意的事很侥幸的, 没发生, 就会更开心了, 不要认为自己很惨, 要觉得有人, 比起你, 还更不幸....... 开心笑, 世界多美好。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

The fifth day

Have a terrible day today, super tired but still hv to take a long way train to get home, thinkin of u while the journey to back home, dunno y, keep on non stop thinkin of u, perhaps too tired and sleepy, juz to think u to keep me awake, if not i sure miss the station where i hv to gt down from the train... ehehehe, i m sick again durin the exam so kelian, my mouth super pain wif ulcers, hard to talk and even laugh oso it will pain, i dunno y i writin msg to u from blog but tat s the way to let u know becuz u wont read my testi from friendster anymore if i dint tell u i did send, last nite ur story too long, but though i hv a nitemare too, sorry errrr i dint talk to u much, i was not in good mood to talk, summore with extremely pain mouth, i dont think i can talk too much... tats the diisaster for not drinkin much water as u told me to but dont get mad of it k? i ll drink more now onwards c u soon

The Fourth Day

Today the 1st paper, dint do well anyway, now have to study, juz to tell u a fuuny thing happen, i bought three papaya wf 1 ringgit, actually from the stall i fren, my mum pay five ringgit but the guy refuse to take n gave my mum 4 ringgit change, miss u a lot, juz gt a super short phone call from u ahaha, but sure super expensive sure..... i wanna tell u sumthin when u back, i hv to........
Enjoy there

第三天了

今天， 已经是第三天了，再倒数，大概还有四天，就可以和你聊了。明天，考试的第一天， 有点担心， 而且， 很想时间能过的快点， 记忆，也需要好一点， 因为需要记下很多资料。 你过的还好吧？ 向来，你都爱吃日本餐， 应该习惯吧？？？ 油价又跌了， 现在是1.30 了, 多亏渔夫的功劳..... 不过,有预感, 將來會再起. 玩的開心點喔................

第二天

今天很累， 忙了一天， 好多学生都快毕业了，大部份都缺席， 剩下的， 只是冷清清的教室。 很想你， 每次陪我聊天， 话题在少，在无聊，只要跟你聊，总不觉闷。 很想听你说故事， 今天发生的事， 你过的还好吧？？？？？ 很想听你形容日本， 应该很美吧？？？ 第二天了，没和你聊了，心情很反常， 也许明天会好些吧？ 我不会想太多， 放心。。。。

没有他的第一夜

好空虚， 很不习惯，是我太依赖你吧？ 眼泪又流了， 睁开着的眼睛很不听话， 闭不上。 很没用吧， 说好要睡的，不要去想，说好要转心，可心还是会不知不觉中漂到你那里，很想放弃的，可是你吩咐的，说我需要转心读书，考式要到了。 我真的乖，逼自己在读，一直在读，可不由自主的，又想到你，很想见你，就一眼都好，可迟迟的都不见你上网，你大概再忙吧？ 好了啦，读书了，不然你又会生气。。。。。。。

At last, they graduate, today was the last preschool day of 2008, the 6 years children, im not

their parents, but really super duper hope they will hv a nice future, dunno y, it was a strong

feelin tat cannot be explained. I really love them, but time hv brought them away, so far

away, they all hv their own lives after tat, their bright future n soon, most probably, they will

forget me a so call teacher for them, they are past n parcel of my life, patrons that hv light up

my life, but they gone, but they left a present for me, A GOOD MEMORY, i really love them so

much so deeply. I cried again, tears leak out from my eyes again, i m so useless n helpless,

cried infront of the parents, but then i really really feel hard to let them go, after a year with

them, is hard to say bye, after all the graduate concert, we all work hard together b4 is hard

to separate. All of them, they were students, but i actually learned a lot from them, learn to

smile more, learn to be innocent ahahaaa, thx for them. I love them so much, i wont forget

bout them, the ways they look now n the memory we hv together we built together. Oo hard

to say goodbye, but teacher should let go for them to hv an adventurous lives. There are more

and more students for me to guide, i swear i will be a good teacher forever if i m.

Hey see is me and Jenny, an adorable gal i knew last year, ahahhaa so happy to see her again. Hopefully our friendship last forever

Nice rite the picture ??

He went back to singapore today, i never miss him tat much b4. Perhaps i never experince b4 cant talk to him for more than 3 hours eheheheheee. Is time for me to learn to acclimatize it. He is goin to Japan soon wow it must be a really hard time for me, cant see him for a week not even wif the webcam, no phone call, how i goin to pass through that week, struggle for tat week, i really dunno. Maybe exam can make me feel better ahhhaaaa i havin exam by tat time. Exam more important ofcuz eheee so juz leave him let go, n study exam study exam continuosly until he come back. Then we sure will have a nice vocation after tat eheee, i really hope so. But i need a time to shop too after exam, welll dunno who will really wanna shop wif me or else i hv to shop alone. TIme to study...........

See finally we made it, we went to Aquaria near KLCC and really a fantastic experience there, the picture i took together wif him, hohohohoo know why both of us were not holdin camera but we can take it. This is becuz of me eheehehee showin pity face to ask the an mo take it for us n then the an mo super funny and very unlucky becuz the first two time, those ngek ngekssss blocking the camera, n then he had to wait until they gone only he manage to take our sweet picture. But the funny things is, he had no idea how to use the phone to take the picture, after he tried for few times only he manage to press the button deep inside and " clik" the photo is there. Wohohohohho but super paiseh, his dearest father showin us the dark face waitin for him to finish up the photo session n then to visit another part. Oopsy daisy so sorry to him. In the darker part, he was juz busyin wif his phone to turn it to flash light, n then he couldnt make it ahahhahahaha, tats his phone but he couldnt make it so funny and then i hv to stand there wif a pose waitin for him to move, going on wif another cute underwater animal. Woooo the best part is under the water, a lot oof sharks stingray wif lonnnnngggg tail n then wif a cute stone fish swimming above us ahhaaaaa, it was nice like i m swimmmin together wif then but they couldnt eat me........ n thhen we walked to the exit........
THE DAY NOT END YET, becuz we still have our MOVIE moghty " BOLT", actually not at all, it juz a super special, touching and funny cartoon. The "BOLT" dog is juz an actor wow but then it is cute ehehehehee if i hv a dog like it, i ll never let it gone away from me, becuz is juz safe when u hv it by ur side and it can be a peer a loyal and trustworthy peer.

Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belongAnd no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's likeTo be like me
To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's likeTo be like meTo be hurtTo feel lost
To be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my lifeNo one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Though this is an out dated song by simple plan, but it was the style up dated in my life now, i used to like tis song very much, but i dont understand it, but juz now when i listen to tis song, i feel like it was a copyright of my life now.is bout me, probably not juz me who was tat unlucky but there more who have the same unfortune like me. Real world, the real society, is so dark. Even in school, college was scary to me now, feel harder than moving a huge rock when the night end and the new day coming when i have to start working and go to college after that. Where i have to listen to stupid lies and see big fake smile. There is a home, but a cold home, where no one know me more, know how unhappy i m, n keep puttin oil on the fire. All i can do is juz hide inside the room not screamin but turn on de comp and listen to songs wow, how bore my life is. U noe how s my world like. I go to work everyday, and see the most fake face in my life, i really hate talkin about others, but i dunno y she so hate me until she wanted to do all those evil things to me not juz me probably. A so call fren of mine, ya dunno wat she think really becuz she alwiiz say she dunno me (perhaps jokin) to others. Infront of me she might be real good but super wicked behind of me. At 1st i dont believe other colleauge bout her but not juz one who told me but a lot wow, whenever i did sumthin tat might irritate her, her bad words about me will non stoppin to others teacher. But is okie, i dont mind, becuz it was part and parcel of workin life. Even to the senior teacher, the principle and assistant principle, my image has all gone( some i admit i did wrongly carelessly). The worse things is i have to study and work together wif her. Gosh, becuz of her, i hv to be all alone, alone and alone. Ya the so call best fren of mine, the one and only fren tat i can close wif hv gone. Becuz of her big fake mouth, she knew i dunno about the presentation, i juz bring my thumbdrive incase there will be a presentation, but she lie infront of everyone. Oh gosh, i alwiz convince myself that tis is part and parcel of life. Besides, the gal that tot i lie to her about the presentation, we use to be close, and she did told bad about the gal workin wif me( a lot), but suprisingly, after the incident they were close than ever hahaha, fake laugh fake smile. All fake but real world.

Is another bad day, today as usual i went to work, went to college, but the worse things is i got my mid term result, and is too bad, my result drop compare to the last semester. Today i was unusual calm that normally i will burst and tears leak out from my eyes but not today. Izzit that i not concern to my result anymore, no ofcuz not i think..... i need to cope up for my final now obviously, if i dint do extremely well for my final i cant maintain my 3.5. The only hope now is my final, the chances to score in Final is limited, summore with trainings b4 that, all i can hope for is miracle that the lecturers will give us some how easier question ahahaha. Sounds like impossible, but then that s wat i can hope for now or else i could have just givin up and stop studyin becuz i noe that i will forget everythin i study too after that if i study now. GOSH, i have a new song to play and is from Debussy, ya the song is super nice but i hv no time for it now, this sat class, all i can do is juz sight read and play as well as i can ahahaha, so sorry to the teacher who teach me but i really dont hv time to practise now. Oops i cant even remember the title of the song wahahahaha, good luck to me

tis better

This was wat the other group did which was nice too but then theirs was a school model

This our group work our piece de resistance, is nice and wow we took a long time to do finish up it. From 9th Nov to 14 Nov ahahahaha, is on sunday, my group member came to my house and we all did all together, though doin this project - classroom model we have a lot of mis communication but finally we did it, and i think it is a wonderful job but hopefully de lecture will give us a higher mark for this model. This semester my result getting worse and worse and i lost 5 mark for my course work becuz i miss my quiz sad sad........... haiz so damm afraid that my result will becum worst this time. Hv to study now janne

Thank God i Found you

I would give up everythingBefore I'd seperatemyself from you
After so much sufferingI finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself forthe longest time
So cold inside And the hurt from theheartache would not subside
I felt like dying Until you saved my life
Thank God I found you I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with graditude'Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you
I will give youeverything nothing inthis world I wouldn'tdo
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you' Cause without youbeside me
I can'tsurviveDon't wanna try you keeping me warm each and every nightI'll be allright
Cause I need you in my life
Thank God I found you I was lost without you My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality When you brought thesunlight
Completed my wholelife I'm overwhelmed with graditud
And I'm so thankful I found you
See I was so desolatebefore you came to me Looking back
I guess it shows that we were destinedTo shine over the rain
to appreciateThe gift of what we have
And I'd go through itall over againTo be able to feel This way
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with graditude
See baby I'm so thankful I found you

眼泪很懦弱，强忍着，不准让它流，累了，就随它去，记得以前小学的点点滴滴，仿佛又像回到了过去，我又是一个人了，表面上的只是一个小丑，在为人笑，为人生而笑。路人都在嘲笑，这个无助的小丑，她隐埋了她的累，她的泪，藏着了她的伤，时时刻刻在笑，容纳她的泪，只有她的房，了解她的，只有她的枕头。她曾经有过，不是一个人的四年，可是过了，时间把它带走了。她最怕的，一个人在当小丑，没有配角的在演着。不知何时何刻，才能演完。她很努力在演，就算太累了，她都还在笑，她不再时爱哭的小丑，演着一个不会哭的她，她很累很累，再加上高难度特技表演，她很想垮了，可是她没有机会，她凌虐自己，让伤有些解脱，可是摆脱不了因为她知道，活着最痛。

Today, wow is my mum birthday, we have a super delicious dinner at a new restaurant named .......... (forget). I almost forget today is 8th nov. My mum have a really awesome birtdate, tat is 118 (direct translate to cantonese). So is super easy to remember her birthday. This morning, luckily my mum woke me up, it was time to work, but i still SNOORRRINNN ZZzzzzzzzz like a pig, hahaa i think my phone already rang for the fourth time but, i was still sleepin, or maybe i snored louder than my phone ring (impossible), bleeeekkk, but luckily my mum knocked my door to wake me up..... after tat, i went to the toilet to brush teeth, wash my face with a lazy mood (no time for bath) . Then a tiring day started. U noe wat, the indian teac who absent for 2 weeks came back. But then, i think our boss edy fired her. But is reasonable, i dont think my boss is cruel, but she juz doin her part. As a teacher we have to make sure that we muz get to school everyday becuz all the students will be more secure to hv a familiar teacher with them so, imagine if they have to face a diff teacher everyday, what they ll be like. They sure have no interest to go to school anymore...

If i wander off too far,
ur love ll get me home,
if i follow the wrong star,
your love will get me home.

if i ever find my self
lost and all alone
get back on my feet
and think of you
your ove will get me home

if the bright lighta blind my eyes
your love will get me home
if my troubles break my strive
your love will get me home

if i ever find myself
lost and all alone
get back on my feet
and think of you
your love will get me home

if i ever feel ashamed
your love will get me home
if there s only me to blame
your love will get me home

if i ever find myself
lost and all alone
get back on my feet and think of you
your love will get me home
your love will get me home

一直以为我有他，其实，只是他有了我。
开始懂了，我只是他的需要，任务，
只是在听，他虽然开了我的心锁，
可还进不了我的世界，我又哭了，声音再笑，
他知道，他听见，颤抖的笑，我选择逃
逃开他的问题，避开回答我不想提起的事，
我说了再见，说了他不想听到的“没事”。
因“没事” 让我之间有了代沟。
我们都说好了，要坦诚相对，很简单，
只是要坦诚，有这样难吗？ 是我没用
智商低，做不到。
我很珍惜，我很努力，在维持，
我不想累了，知道你也累了，
是感情再坚持着，再拉扯着我们的距离。

你总是要我乖 慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪 却一直掉下来　
过去怎么交代 你该给的信赖　
被你亲手 缓缓推入悬崖　
从我脸上的苍白 看到记忆慢下来　
过去甜蜜在倒带 只是感觉已经不在　
而我对你的期待 被你一次次摔坏　
已经碎成太多块 要怎么拼凑跟重来

谢谢你对我的无知，无理，的包容，我确实很无知，

常说你，很自私，可却不知道我才是自私，

我从来就不去体会你的你的忙，你的累，

常要你陪，我开始害怕，不再是你的谁。

对不起，我让你很累，做不成你的萤火虫。

我真的以为我可以，可你的笑验证了，可

我不想放手了，不可能了。我是，是很幸福，

很幸运，你是相反的很倒眉。

Happy Dinner

we have our dinner at Chilis in Klcc, super full that nite, at 1st we plan to visit de Aquaria near o KLCC but unfortunately we couldn't make it, so sad becuz of the Chilis, we had to wait for half an hour and we miss the time to visit Aquaria. Super sad, that was the 2nd time we couldn't make it, haiz hope there s wont be a 3rd time..... hopefullllllyyyy cuz i m so desperate to visit the Aquaria, i ve never been there so sad, but luckily the dinner was super delicious.....

老师的心师

又走了，他们也要走了，在幼儿园当老师最开心是看到学生懂事了，乖了，长大了，可是最伤心的也是看到他们懂事了乖了长大了，甚至，该毕业了，转校了。 明年再不会见到天天逗你的他们。她适合当老师吗？可她真的很希望他们永远都是我的学生，舍不得他们的离去，担心他们的下个老师是好是坏，他们会变坏吗？

Is in my cousin wedding tis is my cousin brother n my another cousin bro's gal fren, b4 de weddin there s a part we listen to the both bride's love story. They both knew each other from icq. Every couple have to been through a lot of odds to have a happy ending. Hopefully they will have a happy new honey moon year and their marriage will last forever. Not every couple can have a happy ending like them, hopefully they ll cherish each other as they promised each other during the wedding.

Look is my piece de resistance, keeeee de one i worked for a nite is nice n cuteee rite? huahua wow did u see de small carrots at the left side, i cut it one by one over nite n the carrots below it wowm really a hard work, tis picture sacrificed my exam.... o no but finally i hv done it though not as good as other teacher, i edy re do it about three times at last i did it.

haizzzz, last nite dint sleep whole nite becuz of de students project haizzzzz finnaaallyyy is super nice n is cute, but haiiiizzzzz i sacrifice my mid term my mark, haiiiizzz tis semester result will drop undoubtly hnnnnggggg sad sad de students project all i hv to do........... tomolo still gt parent teacher meetin days haiiiiizzzz my result err, my mark gone working while studying is not really a gud idea, ya is tiring but de worse one is it ll affect ur markssss haizzzz now very sleeeeppyyyy feel like Zzzzzzz but slap slap cannot sleep errrr hv to study slap slap wakkkkkeeeeeeeuppppppp

O oh, havin mid term next week, heeeeeeeee muz study really reALLY hard hard hard, this semester, hopefully score higher oooo. Haiz again, have a parent teacher meetin day next week, omg, alll de fussssyy parents again, is goin to be here haizzzzzzz Zzzzzzz, oh god plsssssssssssss help, i dunno wat to tell de parents, their children is super naughty or wattt leh? haizzzzzzz hopefully wont get complain again..........

语言的错

何时开始，人们沟通了？有人知道吗？人，用的是语言，人与人之间少不了言语，可有了语言有了言语，就有了“一传十，十传百，百传虚”的厉害。人家说道听而途说，德之弃也， 可却还会有人途说，有人道听。语言减少了人们之间的隔离，可它带给了人们之间的误会，增加了人们之间的争论，甚至争吵。社会里有许许多多利用语言来生存，可不擅长用语言来言语的，往往会因语言或言语被拉倒了，垮了。语言成了日常生活中的必需品，它让人密切，让人表达，可它真的很可怕, 不, 不该是它, 是人心或人性, 它们让语言可怕了. 少说话多做事, 可却有人认为多说话是好事。遥言，让人猜疑，可却人人相信，忠言却逆耳。人心，人性，让语言的存再是个错误，是时候该改了。

我喜欢你紧握我的手一股安全的暖流渗透到胸口

我喜欢你叫我的语气理直气壮的粗鲁却有私密的亲昵

好想你不停止好想你我爱你写在手心你笑容你触碰

还是让我心动好想你不停止好想你我爱你给我勇气

那包容那悸动都是我珍藏的内容(被爱的光荣)

我喜欢你吻我的时候看你专注的低头像永远不够

我喜欢你叫我的名字一副若无其事的又像公开的密秘

好几次我怕会来不及还没抱够你不管我是你几分之几

我只要爱你

刻苦耐劳，难道有苦有劳就有成功吗？？可有的人苦了劳了一辈子，得到的却是失败，或是遗憾的失去。皇天不负苦心人，可皇天真的很爱玩弄人，苦了一辈子的人， 换得来的只是一场恶梦，还是到了尽头，永远的睡了，梦才醒了。为何人要努力的活着，只为了那一瞬间的快乐，还是漫长的劳累，意义在哪里?？或许有些人侥幸的赢了，达到了，可他付出的代价，和他失去的，划算了吗？？ 不幸的人却因欲望，走错了路，回不了岸，走到了尽头，埋没了良心，遗臭万年，或成了害群之马。人生真的如梦吗？何时才会醒，觉悟了，还是会有另一场梦，快乐时是梦，伤心时也是梦，梦何时了，结束了，梦得累了，病痛的梦，又来了，永远睡了，才是最清醒的。

is mei

haha mei happy birthday o wish u luck.

me n phik

me and phik durin our gatherin, so lovely, really hard to meet her and hv a such warm hug, wakaka. Hopefully she ll meet a prince charmin tat love her deeply and hv a happy endin forever cuz i prefer her smile than her tears.

Grumbling

Oops headacche, two more days for my 4 assignment, but i edy feel like dying now, i juz done one quarter of it, i really feel like sleeepin now phewww, i should have read more books, newspaper watever so tat i dont hv to struggle search from the net like searchin a needle under de sea, wat a headache day. Mid term exam soon, but i still haven touch my notes yet, summore wif an annoyin boss, cuz me a lot of prob, progress report to meet parents ,ugghhhh i hate it. i have to blame the reggio emillia approach which cuz us hv to meet parents today though at 1st i like it. Summore wif a deepavali project, a lot of paper works to do, omg wat a tiring life.

contract

In nine years i wan to travel around the world, have my own music school, more succeed than yamaha with my licensesheet, and my own preschool, i will work for it but now i have to finish my assignment and my exxam first. Jia you o

很多次很想鼓起勇气问你，你会不会觉得没有我你会更好过，如果是，不要因为承诺和我一起，就算你要离开，我也没怨言，是我不够好，达不到你要求。。。。。

Romantic night

I don't know but I believe.

That some things are meant to be

.And that you'll make a better me.Everyday I Love You

I never thought that dreams came true.

But you showed me that they do.

You know that I learn something new.

Everyday I Love You'Cause I believe that destiny.

Is out of our control.

Don't you know that I do.

And you'll never live until you love.

With all your heart and soul.

It's a touch when I feel bad.I

t's a smile when I get mad.

All the little things I am.

Everyday I love youEveryday

I love you moreEveryday I love you'Cause I believe that destiny.

Is out of our control.Don't you know that I do.

And you'll never live until you love.

With all your heart and soul.If I asked,

"Would you say yes?"Together we're the very best.

I know that I am truly blessed.

Everyday I love you.And I'll give you my best.

Everyday I love you

Oops, tears burst out again last nite, it really a hard nite for me, but aftter the war i feel better becuz i noe him more, feel relieved now everythin which been hidin in my heart bursted out finally. Perhaps it s pain but juz once and much more better after tat. I not really noe wat he s thinkin but at least i noe wat he wan and i willin to compromise though i not really like to. Maybe it is better for us, and i should hv noe how busy and how tired he was, striving for his dream. All i can do now is juz support him be his V power in order to help him "refill petrol" when he need and not pressurin him to acc me more. Juz Do It

Prince n me

Is me and him, juz had our 1st year annivesary, perhaps it juz a year, but we been through a lot.