Transformming

Goin to be a new me after today, but will still miss and goin to meet my frensssss



I appreciate all i hv especially frensssssssss and my familyy

Mistake

I made a huge mistake that i do not noe how to apologise.......

i juz wanna do everythin myself though i noe u r tryin to help and protect me, sorrry wish to be with u like we used to be

hope u sleep well

Over

Putting my heart back together

Over

Putting my heart back together

New BEGINn

i had a new begin.....
i said i hate uu but i should be grateful to the best memory u gave
and thxx for the changes that u gaveee

The EnDD

SORRY i dunno how to love... tat s wat he saiddd EnDDDD

To my beloved cousin sis

A yong jie jie, my sis juz got married, tis s a good news ahaha, if u r free plsss bless the new bride up there. CNY juz ended ahahha every year is the same, we hv the same ceebration, we go for every open house le, the difference for tis year is tat we cant see u unluckily. ahaha haha Pei nee is taking good care of ur children dont worry, ur husband is good too i think but he definitely miss you so much, if u r free bless him too up there ahahahahha, actually we miss u too very very much though u not here, they mentioned you alwiz how good u r, wat u did to all of them for us.

We all miss you hope u r cared well up there with new frens new life up there, stop disturbing you now, i hv to continue my work.....................

倒带

我受够了等待你所谓的安排　
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带　
你给的全是空白　一个人假日发呆
找不到人陪我看海　我在幸福的门外　
却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害　我是真的很难释怀　
终於看开爱回不来
你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来　
我的眼泪却一直掉下来　
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖　
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖　
从我脸上的苍白　看到记忆慢下来　
过去甜蜜在倒带　
只是感觉已经不在　
而我对你的期待 被你一次次摔坏　
已经碎成太多块　要怎么拼凑跟重来

情歌

时光是琥珀 泪一滴滴被反锁
情书再不朽 也磨成沙漏
青春的上游 白云飞走苍狗与海鸥 闪过的念头
潺潺的溜走
命运好幽默 让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙 换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽 寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头 反而更自由
慢动作 缱绻胶卷 重播默片
定格一瞬间 我们在
告别的演唱会 说好不再见
你写给我 我的第一首歌
你和我 十指紧扣 默写前奏
可是那然后呢 还好我有
我这一首情歌 轻轻的 轻轻哼着 哭着笑着
我的 天长地久
长镜头 越拉越远 越来越远
事隔好几年
我们在 怀念的演唱会
礼貌的吻别 陪我唱歌 清唱你的情歌
舍不得 短短副歌 心还热着
也该告一段落 还好我有
我下一首情歌 生命宛如
静静的 相拥的河 永远
天长地久

过去还在

阴影还在， 画面还在出现， 突然而然的出现。 该怎样呢？？



过去真的很难忘记， 偶尔会好像剪不掉的片段出浮现在脑海里让人呆， 让人醒。

很想逃因为只希望快乐的画面印烙在脑海里， 可真的好少。

今天， 恐怖的画面又在出现， 头真的很疼，它依然存在脑的一部份里，我很想告诉任何一个人，找

不到听众， 真的还好有部落格。。。。。

今天终于学会不再掉泪， 觉得最近都好倒霉，甚至觉得天在玩弄认似的， 被搁在一个只能依靠自己的组里， 没办法， 听天由命啦。。。。。。。。。

妈说过， 做人该懂得“忍”，

我要做“忍者” ！！！！！！！！！！！！

Good Bye

We ll alwiz be wif you no matter how far u are.

We ll never never ever forget u, no matter where u are, u ll stay inside our memory forever.

We ll stay happily for ur sake too as we know tat s wat u want us to be

We ll try our best to fufill ur wishes

Take Care up there and see u there.............

Good Bye forever

永别了

真的没想过, 人生可以那样的短暂, 出乎意料, 它可以如此的垂落。就在昨天, 她终于抵挡不过癌的攻击辞世了。 她离开了世界, 离开了亲人还有离开了她的身躯. 爷爷带她走了吧, 可姑姑可需要白头人送黑头人很伤心吧。 短短的三十多年结束了, 再也不会看到她了. 最遗憾的没如看不到她最后的笑容, 因为她是带着痛苦离开的 ： 化疗的痛, 针刺的痛, 还有病痛陪她走了. 入土的是瘦瘦苍白的她, 还有不甘的她. 为何癌细胞会选择了她, 可一切都迟了,不能够再回头了. (是命运)

命中注定, 我们不能改变. 该发生的事终究会发生, 要怎样改变呢???
改变不了， 可我们要学会去避免。
健康是时间， 是金钱， 是成功， 是一切。 因为没了健康， 我们会少了时间去赚钱， 去成功甚至去努力。 日常生活中， 我们最需要的用品是健康的身体才能完成一切。 人生虽然说没有长生不老， 但是也少不了活到老， 健康到老。 上天赐的， 我们该去珍惜，去把握。 人的生命一点也不草率，只要会活，活的精彩，努力度过每天，哪怕没了明天。
可以任命， 但千万别认输

Trip and visit

Juz back from a two days Port Dickson and Malacca trip. Supposely, i ll be tired and very excited after de trip but after visiting her, no more laughter no more excitement mood.
She is getting weaker and weaker, i think no one else can save her except miracle that most prob not appear we juz waiting for the time to take her away.
God plssss god i beg u plsss dont torture her plsss.....
U can either take her life away or let her stay healtily plsssss, make a decision now plsss...........

She s cold sometimes hot, sometimes weak and sometimes painnnnnnn. Is pain to see her in tat condition, plsss God i noe there s no one can save her life juz let her go reduce her pain plssss..... I noe U r busyin blessin and lookin others but plss take sumtime to look after her juz a decision can let her avoid the painess of Cancer plsss help her...................

EXAM OVER

Finally. it s over and i m free now to read my eclipse my HArry Potter and study my JApanese. Wow feel so relieve as i can rest for an empty scedule week (oops almost forgot my PD trip ahahha). Really really hope there will be a much more happier new semester but till now there s no hope for that so juz wait and see. I really dunno how to solve this kind of relation and then i rather not to solve it since it should be solven not juz by me. LET IT BE!!!!!

I m hungry now stuck in my super lousy college after my exam waitin for other candidates to be done and back with them by bus after that with KTM. That s life, MY LIFE now.

I hav three wishes in my new semester

1st A new CAR hopefully i can get it not really hv to be very nice, but juz make sure that it wont break down eaasily and really really can save petrol. NOT EXPENSIVE at all.

2nd i wish to shop for my new semester CLOTHES, but really hav financial problem now as i goin to broke ahahhaha

3rd wishes is to hav a group members which is fix and i can co operate with them well ahahahha as i not so good in Social Skill.

Can i wish for one more plssss??????
oh yes u can ( getting mad )


I wish i can live peacefully and end my college life faster.................

Guan Yin niang niang plsss help me !!!!!!!!

他的生日快乐

因为他才有了寂寞

因为他,息怒无常

因为他, 开始学会关怀

因为他, 懂得付出

因为他, 音符不再悲伤

可因为他, 有了害怕

有了忐忑不安

有了惊喜

伤口复原

有了生活

有了人生

有了等待

有了盼望

希望他能永远记得这一天.............

当天, 我最想知道, 他许下的五个愿望, 原以为能插20 根蜡烛, 可是雪糕能力有限, 只能让他有5 个愿望, 对不起.........

可是真的希望他所有愿望都能实现

想了几个晚上才想到的庆祝节目就在那一个晚上完成.......

希望能让这画面永远都烙在他回忆里..............

长生不老

人生有选择吗???? 到了临死关头, 别无选择了, 为何没有长生不老呢???? 生命的可贵, 我到了现在才发现, 可对我而言, 我发现的早, 还有时间挽留, 还没成了遗憾. 还记得老陈的辩论比赛, 当时我在想长生不老, 是不应该, 人不该贪生怕死, 因为还有更多的小生命能有机会目睹这世界.
可我终于了解到, 它的重要.
并不是害怕死, 而是怕遗憾, 长生不老, 能挽留很多很多的遗憾. 人生中的缺陷, 也能就此被缝补.
我很害怕, 当我想挽留的时候太迟, 不是因为当时不懂的珍惜, 而是没有多出的两个小时让我们去珍惜, 到最后成为了遗憾, 已经太迟了.
从前的我, 觉得人生只不过是场梦, 可它不该是梦, 事实上也不是一常梦. 因为梦一旦醒了, 一切也许还在, 人生结束了, 一切都会没了, 没的挽留, 没的回头, 没的重演, 没的重梦.
人能珍惜多少, 能有多少, 明天事明天懂, 也许就在明天意外发生, 一切结束了.
所以, 从头到尾, 我们就没了选择,因为命的长短, 全都由死神判断.
人能有长生不老该多好

Sorry

dy so sorry i cant make it to ur mum s funeral, but really hope u r fine now, i sent msgs to u but i cant get ur replies, hope u really ok, i know it is a hard time for u, but i really really reall really hope u ll be fine, i dunno wat else i can say, muz take care of ur health plssss, u still have a lot of works to do ur dream to go.... u r strong i noe tat, keep up ur mum ll bless u, she loves u no matter where she is, she just went far far away to a happyland sorry, really sorry, i hope i can be there with u to at the funeral, i hope i can listen to u too, i wan u be happy be fine, and stay strong, i m ur jie so plsss listen to me k?

all the while i juz can say so, i m useless to u either, but i really hope u r good sorry for not attending the funeral really sorry i really want to go but i cant sorry reallly sorry to u and sorry to hear tat.
Cancer really scary to me now, we muz alwiz take care of our health.
Life is weak sumtimes aprreciate it, make every second in ur life as meaningful as u can, do the things that u think is right, tell de appropriate things and true things can cause ur life happier, dont ever live in hatred, is hard and dont ever be fake is hard, i really pity to those who hate, who fake, and those who like to talk bad behind others, pity them but forgive them, sometimes they dint mean it, it is juz how they learn and developed since they were young. Forgive them, sometime u can learn more from them. Becuz i learn a lot too.I really mean it, dont hate anyone besides u, learn more to forgive.....

Live dont leave

Izzit so hard to live on???????? yeah i admit it, is hard to live on, continue life that s miserable, hard and tough.

What to do, we were born and we choosed to stay, just stay. Sometimes we don't hav the choice to choose to stay becuz perhaps when we cross a road, a stupid car juz bang on us and we hv to say bye bye to tis world. HMM think too much, but definitely not now as i juz sitting infront of tis laptop.
Though sometimes we have to make decision in life, as we have to. While we were holding the power to say yes or no, do or don't. It is a hard task for me deifinitely becuz there will be many pros and cons that i hv to think list down and check it up.

I alwiz think of, will i be a good leader a day as one day i might lead a company of workers or might be a bosss one day. Who knows, will i good in doing tat i wonder.Ofcourse not now, as i still on de way to it, but can it be one day???
I wan to, i hope i can and it is my ability.

There s a story about a crow, it saw an eagle caught a sheep with its crawl up to de sky, and it tried to immitated what de eagle did and it tried very hard. But in the end, it was caught by the shepherd and ended up staying de cage for the rest of its life.

This story tell us not to do sumthing that beyond ur ability.
Izzit the true that the crow can never be the eagle, sparrow can never be phoenix, do i need to believe tat. Is funny bcuz i still want to becuz that is wat i believe and that is wat i want. No matter how hard i hv to try even it ll sacrifice my entire life but i still want it.

加油喔

无聊望见了犹豫 (谁人没试过犹豫)
达到理想不太易 即使有信心 斗志却抑止
谁人定我去和留 定我心中的宇宙
只想靠两手向理想挥手
问句天机高心中志比天更高
自信打不死的心态活到老
我有我心底故事
亲手写上每段得失乐与悲与梦儿
纵有创伤不退避
梦想有日达成找到心底梦想的世界 终可见
亲手写上每段得失乐与悲与梦儿
梦想有日达成找到心底梦想的世界

青蛙

每当在下雨之前, 青蛙都会叫个不停好像在告诉所有人快要下雨了.......
我很喜欢雨天, 尤其是绵绵细雨, 虽然带来一点悲愁, 可是过后总会有彩虹. 人的生命中, 总会有雨过天晴吧????
记得他曾经问我, 人活着有什么意义, 其实我也不知道. 我给的答案, 是为了他, 不让他怀疑. 记得高中的埔导老事让我们看了一部影片, 描述在德国发生的人间大悲剧.......................
还有日本人狂妄的慰安妇,当时的人都在求生逃氓 ,求生意志强 ,甚至为了活, 放弃尊严. 老师问, 你爬死吗????? 当时我没回答. ( 懒的理 ).

我并不懂, 我怕死吗? ??? 我知道, 我很怕很怕活, 地球和地狱有不同吗????? 我见识了地球, 可是它很可怕. 在这里, 总会面对提心吊胆, 生老病死, 爱恨情仇......................

它美吗?? 我看不到........... 我觉得和人家所描述的地狱反而很相似.

我不明白, 当时的人为什么要逃, 为何要躲, 为何要生...