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Saturday, November 22, 2008

Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belongAnd no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's likeTo be like me
To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's likeTo be like meTo be hurtTo feel lost
To be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my lifeNo one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Though this is an out dated song by simple plan, but it was the style up dated in my life now, i used to like tis song very much, but i dont understand it, but juz now when i listen to tis song, i feel like it was a copyright of my life now.is bout me, probably not juz me who was tat unlucky but there more who have the same unfortune like me. Real world, the real society, is so dark. Even in school, college was scary to me now, feel harder than moving a huge rock when the night end and the new day coming when i have to start working and go to college after that. Where i have to listen to stupid lies and see big fake smile. There is a home, but a cold home, where no one know me more, know how unhappy i m, n keep puttin oil on the fire. All i can do is juz hide inside the room not screamin but turn on de comp and listen to songs wow, how bore my life is. U noe how s my world like. I go to work everyday, and see the most fake face in my life, i really hate talkin about others, but i dunno y she so hate me until she wanted to do all those evil things to me not juz me probably. A so call fren of mine, ya dunno wat she think really becuz she alwiiz say she dunno me (perhaps jokin) to others. Infront of me she might be real good but super wicked behind of me. At 1st i dont believe other colleauge bout her but not juz one who told me but a lot wow, whenever i did sumthin tat might irritate her, her bad words about me will non stoppin to others teacher. But is okie, i dont mind, becuz it was part and parcel of workin life. Even to the senior teacher, the principle and assistant principle, my image has all gone( some i admit i did wrongly carelessly). The worse things is i have to study and work together wif her. Gosh, becuz of her, i hv to be all alone, alone and alone. Ya the so call best fren of mine, the one and only fren tat i can close wif hv gone. Becuz of her big fake mouth, she knew i dunno about the presentation, i juz bring my thumbdrive incase there will be a presentation, but she lie infront of everyone. Oh gosh, i alwiz convince myself that tis is part and parcel of life. Besides, the gal that tot i lie to her about the presentation, we use to be close, and she did told bad about the gal workin wif me( a lot), but suprisingly, after the incident they were close than ever hahaha, fake laugh fake smile. All fake but real world.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Is another bad day, today as usual i went to work, went to college, but the worse things is i got my mid term result, and is too bad, my result drop compare to the last semester. Today i was unusual calm that normally i will burst and tears leak out from my eyes but not today. Izzit that i not concern to my result anymore, no ofcuz not i think..... i need to cope up for my final now obviously, if i dint do extremely well for my final i cant maintain my 3.5. The only hope now is my final, the chances to score in Final is limited, summore with trainings b4 that, all i can hope for is miracle that the lecturers will give us some how easier question ahahaha. Sounds like impossible, but then that s wat i can hope for now or else i could have just givin up and stop studyin becuz i noe that i will forget everythin i study too after that if i study now. GOSH, i have a new song to play and is from Debussy, ya the song is super nice but i hv no time for it now, this sat class, all i can do is juz sight read and play as well as i can ahahaha, so sorry to the teacher who teach me but i really dont hv time to practise now. Oops i cant even remember the title of the song wahahahaha, good luck to me

Monday, November 17, 2008



tis better


This was wat the other group did which was nice too but then theirs was a school model




























This our group work our piece de resistance, is nice and wow we took a long time to do finish up it. From 9th Nov to 14 Nov ahahahaha, is on sunday, my group member came to my house and we all did all together, though doin this project - classroom model we have a lot of mis communication but finally we did it, and i think it is a wonderful job but hopefully de lecture will give us a higher mark for this model. This semester my result getting worse and worse and i lost 5 mark for my course work becuz i miss my quiz sad sad........... haiz so damm afraid that my result will becum worst this time. Hv to study now janne

Monday, November 10, 2008

Thank God i Found you

I would give up everythingBefore I'd seperatemyself from you
After so much sufferingI finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself forthe longest time
So cold inside And the hurt from theheartache would not subside
I felt like dying Until you saved my life
Thank God I found you I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with graditude'Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you
I will give youeverything nothing inthis world I wouldn'tdo
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you' Cause without youbeside me
I can'tsurviveDon't wanna try you keeping me warm each and every nightI'll be allright
Cause I need you in my life
Thank God I found you I was lost without you My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality When you brought thesunlight
Completed my wholelife I'm overwhelmed with graditud
And I'm so thankful I found you
See I was so desolatebefore you came to me Looking back
I guess it shows that we were destinedTo shine over the rain
to appreciateThe gift of what we have
And I'd go through itall over againTo be able to feel This way
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with graditude
See baby I'm so thankful I found you

Sunday, November 9, 2008

眼泪很懦弱,强忍着,不准让它流,累了,就随它去,记得以前小学的点点滴滴,仿佛又像回到了过去,我又是一个人了,表面上的只是一个小丑,在为人笑,为人生而笑。路人都在嘲笑,这个无助的小丑,她隐埋了她的累,她的泪,藏着了她的伤,时时刻刻在笑,容纳她的泪,只有她的房,了解她的,只有她的枕头。她曾经有过,不是一个人的四年,可是过了,时间把它带走了。她最怕的,一个人在当小丑,没有配角的在演着。不知何时何刻,才能演完。她很努力在演,就算太累了,她都还在笑,她不再时爱哭的小丑,演着一个不会哭的她,她很累很累,再加上高难度特技表演,她很想垮了,可是她没有机会,她凌虐自己,让伤有些解脱,可是摆脱不了因为她知道,活着最痛。

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Today, wow is my mum birthday, we have a super delicious dinner at a new restaurant named .......... (forget). I almost forget today is 8th nov. My mum have a really awesome birtdate, tat is 118 (direct translate to cantonese). So is super easy to remember her birthday. This morning, luckily my mum woke me up, it was time to work, but i still SNOORRRINNN ZZzzzzzzzz like a pig, hahaa i think my phone already rang for the fourth time but, i was still sleepin, or maybe i snored louder than my phone ring (impossible), bleeeekkk, but luckily my mum knocked my door to wake me up..... after tat, i went to the toilet to brush teeth, wash my face with a lazy mood (no time for bath) . Then a tiring day started. U noe wat, the indian teac who absent for 2 weeks came back. But then, i think our boss edy fired her. But is reasonable, i dont think my boss is cruel, but she juz doin her part. As a teacher we have to make sure that we muz get to school everyday becuz all the students will be more secure to hv a familiar teacher with them so, imagine if they have to face a diff teacher everyday, what they ll be like. They sure have no interest to go to school anymore...

Thursday, November 6, 2008

If i wander off too far,
ur love ll get me home,
if i follow the wrong star,
your love will get me home.

if i ever find my self
lost and all alone
get back on my feet
and think of you
your ove will get me home

if the bright lighta blind my eyes
your love will get me home
if my troubles break my strive
your love will get me home

if i ever find myself
lost and all alone
get back on my feet
and think of you
your love will get me home

if i ever feel ashamed
your love will get me home
if there s only me to blame
your love will get me home

if i ever find myself
lost and all alone
get back on my feet and think of you
your love will get me home
your love will get me home

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

一直以为我有他,其实,只是他有了我。
开始懂了,我只是他的需要,任务,
只是在听,他虽然开了我的心锁,
可还进不了我的世界,我又哭了,声音再笑,
他知道,他听见,颤抖的笑,我选择逃
逃开他的问题,避开回答我不想提起的事,
我说了再见,说了他不想听到的“没事”。
因“没事” 让我之间有了代沟。
我们都说好了,要坦诚相对,很简单,
只是要坦诚,有这样难吗? 是我没用
智商低,做不到。
我很珍惜,我很努力,在维持,
我不想累了,知道你也累了,
是感情再坚持着,再拉扯着我们的距离。

Sunday, November 2, 2008

你总是要我乖 慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪 却一直掉下来 
过去怎么交代 你该给的信赖 
被你亲手 缓缓推入悬崖 
从我脸上的苍白 看到记忆慢下来 
过去甜蜜在倒带 只是感觉已经不在 
而我对你的期待 被你一次次摔坏 
已经碎成太多块 要怎么拼凑跟重来

Saturday, November 1, 2008

谢谢你对我的无知,无理,的包容,我确实很无知,
常说你,很自私,可却不知道我才是自私,
我从来就不去体会你的你的忙,你的累,
常要你陪,我开始害怕,不再是你的谁。
对不起,我让你很累,做不成你的萤火虫。
我真的以为我可以,可你的笑验证了,可
我不想放手了,不可能了。我是,是很幸福,
很幸运,你是相反的很倒眉。